it isn't my fault. really. he forgot to print out the script, and i was patient and i asked him nicely and he blew up at me. it really is not my fault.

you know i really just want to stop. i don't know why im continuing with this violin thing, when i'm not extremely emotionally attached to it. and i'm getting nowhere. and the amount of commitment it takes to get anywhere is not something i am willing or able to put in, especially not this year. or i could just drop to once a week, and choose not to do the exam. so i will still be playing by name, just balancing both. this seems like the rational thing to do.

they can't make me do anything. i can do what i choose. they can only suggest things, really . and use it against me for life of course.